When Miss Marple was answering the first question, she revealed to a shocked Mrs McGillicuddy the reason she rejected the young man’s advances during the war. She knew she was not attracted to him. It was other girls that she would dream about. She had always been ashamed of these feelings, but it was when she met Miss Hinchcliffe and Miss Murgatroyd that she began to think differently. She saw how deeply attached to each other they had been.
When she became addicted therefore, she had found a way of suppressing her feelings. She could disappear into the image of a sharp and nosy lady that she had created. During that awful
discussion with the policeman, she thought her intellectual powers had gone. It was as if she were left with nothing; neither the emotional closeness for which she yearned nor the alternative person she had created.
This then explained the crisis which had fuelled all Miss Marple’s efforts at recovery.
Speaking of ‘who I am now’, Miss Marple said that she felt sad about all those years hiding her true feelings. But, she had been able to find a new kind of emotional closeness to people through the work on recovery. Being more open about herself, and encouraging others to share their personal struggles had led to all kinds of more rewarding relationships, with Mr Rafael and his son, with Professor Wanstead, Miss Barrow, Mrs Sandbourne, with Marjorie Hubbard, with her nephews and with Lucy and Mrs McGillicuddy!